friendship

Friendship is a topic that has been coming up a lot lately. What is a friend? Who can you call a friend? Is a friend someone that is always there for you, or that you are always there for? or both? Does a friend have to be someone close by? Someone you've met face-to-face? known for many years?

I will be honest - I don't know!! I used to have an idea of what a friend was - someone that I spent time with, trusted with my deepest secrets, kept their deepest secrets, etc. But now I'm not so sure. I have a lot of "friends" that only come to me when they need me - when they need advice, a shoulder to cry on, someone to listen. But I can honestly say, they wouldn't be there for me. I know, I've tried. So what do you call a one-sided friendship? I don't know for sure, but I call it a ministry. I think of my ministry as being available to people that need me, even though I KNOW the favor will not be returned. So where do I go for support? Who do I turn to when I need a shoulder? 1) myself, 2) God, 3) my husband. For those things I can't share with my husband, I journal. Do I want a true friend - oh yeah!! more than you could know - unless you are in the same boat - which I'm finding more and more. I had no idea so many other women felt like I do. So if so many women feel like this, why are so many people getting treated poorly? I don't know.

Just my thoughts for today.