What's wrong with me?

Oh yeah, I'm sick!! UGH!! I am still fighting this head-cold. But it's turning me into a zombie-like person. I feel like I'm in a fog. I was telling my hubby I feel disconnected. I see things going on around me, but it's like I'm not really here. Even when I type an email, half the time I reread it, and it doesn't make sense. My brain is just not functioning properly! I can see things in the house - like the living room floor was a mess, but it didn't register to have the kids pick up their mess. I just looked at it, and kept walking - like I didn't really see it. Wow, now I'm sounding like a crazy person. I'm ready to be over this cold and back to my normal self! I promise, I'm not always like this! But if you get an email from me, and it makes no sense - or if you are reading this and it makes no sense, I'm sorry! It's the cold talking.

then you read something like this

Ok, so I posted earlier about having a hard time. This evening, I was going through the papers the kids brought home. I found one in Caleb's pile, that made me very proud! His instructions were to write a story about a soldier who sees a horse behind a tree using the words in the box (behind, story, and soldier). Here is Caleb's story (with a few spelling corrections from mom):

Once there was a soldier who saw a horse behind a tree. He was tired of walking so he rode it home. He saw a poor man. He gave it to the man. The poor man thanked the soldier for the horse.

It's reading things like that, that reassure me somewhere in their heads, the kids are picking up on what we are teaching them. Lessons like giving to those in need. I am so proud of my 7 year old!!

sick and down - great combo. :(

I'm having a really bad week. Part of it is b/c I'm sick - AGAIN! I am ready to be well for more than a day!

Have you ever had a really good week - things going smoothly, kids doing well, house in order, etc. You start feeling pretty good, thinking "yeah, I can do this! I can handle my family and my life." Then one day it comes crashing down around you? Well, that describes me this week. I am feeling like a failure this week. I forgot Megan's snack day on Monday - that was the first oops. I felt horrible! I haven't forgotten a snack day since I was in the hospital having Madison! Then the laundry started piling up. It's partly b/c I'm sick and don't feel like doing the laundry, and partly b/c it seems like we are rarely home anymore. The house needs a major cleaning, the kids' closets need to be cleaned out, I need to come up with some menus and go grocery shopping, the list goes on and on.

Today has been a very stressful day. I lost my temper with the kids earlier - all of them! Madison was crying for no reason other than I wasn't holding her, Conner and Megan were fighting, Conner glued his homework to the coffee table, the house had toys all over, the bucket of gloves and hats was empty b/c the contents were strewn all over the hall, the back door was standing wide open letting in more cold air which was causing the heater to kick on, etc, etc, etc. I was ready to lock myself in a room and scream!!! I finally managed to get the coffee table clean, rescue the homework, convince the kids to leave the door closed and pick up the gloves, entertain Madison w/ some toys so I could fix lunch, and get the kids to school. Now I'm going to take a nap b/c a)I'm sick! and b) mommy needs a timeout!

update (it's been a while) - again

I am really bad at blogging these days. I guess it's b/c things are so busy around here. And I'm afraid if I sit down to blog, I'll have so much to say, I won't stop. lol But I'm going to update now, and then try to do better. :)

I'll start with the kids:
Caleb - in 2nd grade and loving it!! He was just awarded the principal's honor roll for straight A's. He also received the RAM award for the month of October. (His school mascot is the Rams - the award is given to one boy and one girl in each class.) His teacher told me he's doing great in his reading. In fact he's pretty advanced in his reading. Which doesn't surprise me - the boy loves to read! He'll read anything in front of him. :) He's playing soccer this season for the Y, and loves that as well. He has asked to play it again in the spring.

Conner is in 1/2 day Kindergarten. It took him a couple of weeks to adjust, but now that he has, he's doing great! He's doing exceptionally well for his age, although he still has his stubborn moments when he won't participate. But we know how smart he is. ;) He's playing flag football, and this is the first sport he has really enjoyed. He has also asked to play next season.

Megan is in 1/2 day pre-k. Her teacher has told me she is extremely bright as well. (guess I'm blessed w/ smart kids.) She is learning to write her name, and really seems to enjoy learning. I am so proud of her! She's playing soccer. She has lots of fun, but at her age, she still doesn't fully get it. but that's ok - she's learning. She is such a friendly, out-going girl. Anytime she sees a girl close to her age, she'll walk up to her and say "I'm Megan, want to play with me?" lol She loves making friends!

Madison is now 7 1/2 months old. She's crawling, but only when she really wants to get to something. She has been sick the last week or so, so she hasn't been her normal bright-eyed, happy self. But she's starting to feel better, and slowly getting back to where she was. She is such a joy to us! I can't imagine life without her. She's learning to wave bye-bye, and says "babababa" and "mamamamama" Neither means anything specific yet, but it's a start. :)

Chris has been asked by a church in Norman to come help with their youth. They are a small church with very few youth, but they were so excited to find out that Chris was willing to help out. It was a total God-thing that they even found us. Their music minister knew Chris from another church that Chris helped out. When he ran into Chris and found out he wasn't at a church, he asked Chris to come help with his current church. So that's what we're doing. We've been there the last 2 Sundays, and they seem like a very friendly church.

As for me - I'm just trying to keep it all running smoothly. I have my daily routine, and that helps. And things will slow down once the season is over for the kids' sports. I'm working on being a better wife and mother. I've made a lot of changes, so I'm proud of myself for that.

Well, it's getting late, and this is getting pretty long. I'm going to try to do better at blogging. We'll see. :)