friendship

Friendship is a topic that has been coming up a lot lately. What is a friend? Who can you call a friend? Is a friend someone that is always there for you, or that you are always there for? or both? Does a friend have to be someone close by? Someone you've met face-to-face? known for many years?

I will be honest - I don't know!! I used to have an idea of what a friend was - someone that I spent time with, trusted with my deepest secrets, kept their deepest secrets, etc. But now I'm not so sure. I have a lot of "friends" that only come to me when they need me - when they need advice, a shoulder to cry on, someone to listen. But I can honestly say, they wouldn't be there for me. I know, I've tried. So what do you call a one-sided friendship? I don't know for sure, but I call it a ministry. I think of my ministry as being available to people that need me, even though I KNOW the favor will not be returned. So where do I go for support? Who do I turn to when I need a shoulder? 1) myself, 2) God, 3) my husband. For those things I can't share with my husband, I journal. Do I want a true friend - oh yeah!! more than you could know - unless you are in the same boat - which I'm finding more and more. I had no idea so many other women felt like I do. So if so many women feel like this, why are so many people getting treated poorly? I don't know.

Just my thoughts for today.

time for an update

Guess it's time for an update. I have been staying very busy. We got some snow/ice last week. The kids were out of school 3 1/2 days. They were so excited to finally get some snow. Actually I was too. :) We don't get very much snow around here, so it's nice when we finally see it. Although, everything shuts down when it snows. And those that do venture out have no idea how to drive on snow, so there are lots of accidents. Thankfully we are all safe. And we never lost power!! That's a huge blessing.

Kids are all doing well. I signed up the 3 oldest for spring soccer. Funny they call is "spring" soccer b/c it starts in February. We may even have some games gets "snowed out". But the kids really enjoy soccer, so we'll be there every Saturday - bundled up and drinking our cappuccino to stay warm. I missed some games last year at this time b/c I had a new baby. I can't believe Madison is going to be a year old in one month! How is that possible??!!!! Where does the time go? She is so close to walking. She will pull up and let go, take about 3 steps then fall down. She gets so excited to be walking, that she loses her balance. She is such a joy. As with each of the others, I can't even imagine our lives without her. And I even have my moments of wanting more. I can't say we are done b/c you never know what God has planned. I know of so many families that said they were done - even took steps to insure they were done, but God had other plans, and they ended up with more. So we'll just wait and see what God has for us.

That's all I've got for tonight. (((HUGS)))